This one actually has some relevance to life and not just Digimon, I swear. And prepare yourself for emotional crap.

First off, I finally got that German project done this morning, and it's all printed out and gorgeous, and then I found out the APEH thing that I totally didn't get done tonight is due Tuesday, not tomorrow, so I'll only be up 'til 2 or 3 doing AP stuff and not have to fit that in there, too! I'm really happy!

I know I really should stop procrastinating, but hey, it works for me. Most of the time. *shrugs* I can never do homework at home; there's too many distractions!

And I am VERY easiloy distracted- like today in church (perfect example of previous statement- randomly changing topic...) I kept thinking about anime and school and then some completely random stuff, and had to keep reminding myself to pay attention, pretty much every four seconds. Which is weird, becasue normally I really like my church, and today for some reason I was nervous (?) about the whole 'you are part of spirit, therefore you are perfect God-expressing' thing, because I really don't feel like perfect /anything/.

I feel almost... defective. I'm not sure what it is... It's like I don't process feelings the same way as everyone else.

I dunno. I think it's just that I have this manga/anime/fanfiction-idealized version of everything, like with love: you have one person that you have this ridiculous depth of feelings for, and I don't know if I'm capable of feeling that much. Also, I think anime has screwed with my sense of 'normal'. Not that I had one to start with, but... Yeah. I can't explain any better.

Anyways, all this is really weird, because I'm happier with my life right now (this year, really) than I have been since I was like six. Seriously. I love my friends and school and pretty much everything- there's nothing bugging me right now, except myself.

Maybe it's like Em said, and I'm just making stuff up to worry about. IDK. But it's been bothering me for awhile now, and I needed to say /something/.

Disclaimer: None of my emotional crap has anything to do with /anybody/. (It's not you, it's me. Seriously.) I'm just... messed-up. Emotionally, that is; I haven't gone crazy (yet)...

Meh. Not much else to say. I found a really cute Taishirou earlier, which made me happy... ^_^
See ya at school tomorrow, to those of you it applies to!